Not what I want…

I started this blogging journey almost three months ago now. I just came to the realization over the past week that this site is not what I want now. I love reading books and I love sharing those books with others but since I was new to the blogging community then, I just went with it and didn’t know what exactly I was doing.

Now it’s been a few months and I’ve come to the realization that I want to not only share with others the books I’m reading but also the books I am writing and maybe some of my Flash Fiction works. However, I’ve made quite a mess out of this site that I don’t think that I will be able to fix it on here.

So, my plan is to take this week and start a new blog that will better reflect who I am and what I like. I will eventually be closing this site down and completely moving to the other one but for now I’m going to leave it up until I get the other one completely sorted out. Thank you to everyone that has been following me on here and I hope that once I get the new one up that you will still follow me on that one as well! This has been quite the learning experience for myself and I’m starting to figure out more about who I am and what I like as I go along.

Thank you!!

A letter to my son

To my 7-year-old son,

I want to tell you how much I love you. You are my first-born and you’ll always be my baby boy. You’re growing up so fast and part of me wishes you would just stop. Mommy needs some time to catch up to you.

There are things I haven’t told you yet, that I desperately want to share with you. First off, I want you to remember how smart and strong you are. you didn’t have an easy start to life and sometimes I feel it is my fault even though I know it’s not.

You were born six weeks early and your first three weeks were spent in the hospital until you were finally able to not only breathe on your own but eat on your own without the assistance of a feeding tube. Mommy was so scared! I tried to be with you for as long as I could during those three weeks, but it was just the beginning of a mile long list of the things that you shouldn’t have had to endure in your young life.

A month after bringing you home, we learned that you might have Cystic Fibrosis. I didn’t know a thing about it and everything I looked up about it, made me frightened. We caught a small break with the diagnosis because we found out you have CRMS (Cystic Fibrosis Related Metabolic Syndrome) instead. They said you may progress and get worse or you may not have any symptoms at all.

I know you hate the doctor’s appointments and the sweat tests that they do almost every year, but I promise you, it’s to help. I pray and pray every time we go to those appointments that you’re not getting worse and that you never will. You’ve been my rock and I don’t ever want it broken, but it didn’t end there for you.

Then you had to endure the loss of your father and only two-and-a-half years old. Your whole world shattered. The older siblings you had never came around and as much as I tried to be strong for you and your sister, I think you knew that I wasn’t

I was so scared during that first year after we lost your dad. I was scared of what it would do to you and if you would ever have a man in your life to look up to. I was scared that I would fail you and I wanted nothing more than your happiness.

Then you got older and the medical conditions just kept piling up and still are to this day. Along with the CRMS you have been diagnosed with flat feet, ADHD, asthma, and we will find out soon if Dyslexia is to join the growing list.

But you have persevered. You turned into an amazing little boy and I love everything about you. You’re sensitive and caring and a smart, little number ninja. You are going to become an amazing young man and I want you to know how much I love you and how much I only want the best for you because you deserve nothing less!

Love,

Mom

My Favorite YouTubers!

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When I began writing again, I wanted to get a better feel for the writing community, so one of the things I did was start watching videos on YouTube. A lot of them have so many helpful tips and tricks to the industry that I re-watch their videos when I get to that point in my writing process and smile or nod in acknowledgement as I share in the same grievances. So, here is a list of the one’s I follow and if there are some that you like but are not listed here, leave a comment so the rest of us can check them out, too!

  • Alwritey: I haven’t yet watched many of her videos but still she seems to have a lot of good tips
  • Jenna Moreci: She is hilarious but some of her content might want to be watched after kids are in bed. She does use language not always appropriate for all audiences but she makes it funny. She also has some amazing tips on basically every step in the writing process!
  • Katytastic: She can also be pretty funny but in a softer way than Jenna and she has amazing tips while doing vlogs on book reviews.
  • Kristen Martin: She has a few books out already and has some pretty awesome tips!
  • ShaelinWrites: I recently started watching her and I still have more of her videos to watch but she also gives some tips for writers.
  • WordNerds: These girls are amazing! They have tips on nearly every subject and do book reviews along with tons of other videos!
  • Kim Chance: She has amazing tips for writers!

The Darkest Lie By: Gena Showalter

The Darkest Lie

By: Gena Showalter

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4 stars

Gideon, keeper of Lies, finds himself in a confusing position when his friends bring another Lord into their fortress. This one is Scarlet, keeper of Nightmares, and confesses to being Gideon’s wife. As the keeper of Lies, Gideon can tell the difference between a truth and a lie, but what Scarlet tells him doesn’t register as either. As the two quest to find the answers, they find themselves falling in love – and bed – no matter how much they try to deny each other.

I love Gideon! (Not a lie!) I love his character so much, almost as though he could be my best friend or an annoying brother. And Scarlet! That sarcastic sense of humor is amazing! I’d probably react the same way to Gideon as she did, knowing what he means but taking it in the literal since just to get on his nerves.

I highly recommend this book. Although, it wasn’t one of my favorites in the series, it was still amazingly written. But if you don’t think you can handle Gideon Speak, I’d stay clear.

April 24, 2017

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How true is this quote? I love it! I’ve always considered myself a dreamer. In school, I’d tune out my teachers, lost in a world that could only be found in my mind. As an adult, I’ve caught myself daydreaming throughout the day of the stories I yearn to share. Are you a conscious dreamer, too?

Gena Showalter

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As some of you may have noticed, I have been reading a lot of Gena Showalter’s books lately. Now, I don’t know about any of you but if I find a series that I really like then I can’t rest until I have read every book in that series so I’ve been hooked on her Lords of the Underworld series. But I’ve come realize that it’s not just because of my need to finish the series that I’ve become borderline obsessed with it. Instead, it’s because of the author, Gena Showalter, and how much I look up to her writing style.

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In this series, I have been completely blown away by Gena and how amazing of a writer she is. There are a lot of books in the series and each one focuses on a single Lord and their quest for love, yet, there is a larger plot that covers all the books in the series which ties them all together. It amazes me at how well the series is written and makes me want to aspire to this degree of creativity.

I’ve been reading Gena’s books for about nine or ten years now and I’m excited to read more of her stories. I plan on reading all of her series’ over time as well as catching up on some of my other favorite author’s like Lynsay Sands, Jeaniene Frost, Rebecca Hamilton, Christine Feehan, Kresley Cole, and J.R. Ward, but I just had to take a moment to praise Gena Showalter.

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Not only is Gena an amazing author but she’s also very friendly on social media. She responds to fans online and is always so polite that it amazes me that she could very well be considered a celebrity. I follow quite a few of my favorite authors on social media and so far she seems to be the only one who really interacts with her fans. To me that gives her a more real persona than just “an author.” It makes her more likeable which in turn makes me want to buy and read more of her books.

I’ve read a book recently that has a bunch of facts about the Lords of the Underworld series titled The Darkest Facts and in this book is an interview with Gena. I was blown away by the information she revealed in the interview about the series I have come to love. She’s a pantser! She doesn’t like plotting and most of the time just sits down and writes, letting the characters speak to her. This is what I have always done until recently.

I made a post last week about my writing process and I mentioned in it that the story I had started didn’t end up turning out the way I had wanted. I found out, this happened to Gena as well with this series but she kept tweaking it and it became this beautiful masterpiece. It gives me hope. Although I’ve noticed having a little bit of an outline allows me to beat writer’s block so I’m not sure if I’ll give it up but my outlines have become so simple lately, enough outlining to give me point a and point b but then I just make up the points in between.

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Gena Showalter is an amazing author and person. I can proudly say that she is a role model of mine and I hope that one day, I can be as creative an author as she is!

The Darkest Passion By: Gena Showalter

The Darkest Passion

By: Gena Showalter

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5 stars

Aeron, keeper of wrath, thinks humans should be begging for more time on Earth and finds them weak that they don’t do so. Paris, keeper of Promiscuity, tries to get Aeron to understand why humans are that way and how they are enjoying every minute of time they have left. However, it’s not until Olivia, a fallen angel, comes into his life that Aeron finally understands. Olivia, though, proves that she can be quite useful in the search for Pandora’s Box, the war with the hunter’s, and the new search for more Lord’s harboring demons.

Wow! That’s all I can say. I thought Reyes was my favorite Lord but I now think it’s Aeron and this book is utterly amazing! So much new information is given in this book that increases the overall plot of the series and opens the series up to the Angels of the Dark series, also by Gena Showalter. (Which I can’t wait to start reading now!) If I could give this book 6 stars, I would but 5 stars in my limit. Amazing!